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[SIZE=1][SIZE=1]It seems appropriate to post in this Topic just having joined the Forum. I don't have a salvation story that would leave anyone on the edge of their seats, but I do know that God's Word says that He is not willing that any should perish. I can't remember a time when I didn't know or love Him, but Salvation didn't come until I understood that I was a sinner and needed saving. That didn't happen until I was an adult wherein I realized one must be born again, as Jesus said. I so simply BELIEVED who Jesus is (The Lord, Messiah, Savior) and BELIEVED He died for my sins and by so doing, the payment for my sins (and yours) is PAID IN FULL. I can't imagine why anyone wouldn't want to be with the Lord or not serve Him since all my life He's walked and talked with me, but maturity as a Christian did not happen for me until the Salvation "experience." On the chance that anyone reading this is thinking being a Christian is just because they go to church should read the gospel of John and ask the Lord to show them how they need Him in their lives, and how one needs to humble themselves to understand you can't save yourself.
[quote=Tracy,May 5 2005, 06:25 PM]
[SIZE=1][SIZE=1]It seems appropriate to post in this Topic just having joined the Forum. I don't have a salvation story that would leave anyone on the edge of their seats, but I do know that God's Word says that He is not willing that any should perish. I can't remember a time when I didn't know or love Him, [B]but Salvation didn't come until I understood that I was a sinner and needed saving. That didn't happen until I was an adult wherein I realized one must be born again[/B], as Jesus said. I so simply BELIEVED who Jesus is (The Lord, Messiah, Savior) and BELIEVED He died for my sins and by so doing, the payment for my sins (and yours) is PAID IN FULL. I can't imagine why anyone wouldn't want to be with the Lord or not serve Him since all my life He's walked and talked with me, but maturity as a Christian did not happen for me until the Salvation "experience." On the chance that anyone reading this is thinking being a Christian is just because they go to church should read the gospel of John and ask the Lord to show them how they need Him in their lives, and how one needs to humble themselves to understand you can't save yourself.
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SAME! I am happy you are saved.
[SIZE=1][SIZE=1]It seems appropriate to post in this Topic just having joined the Forum. I don't have a salvation story that would leave anyone on the edge of their seats, but I do know that God's Word says that He is not willing that any should perish. I can't remember a time when I didn't know or love Him, [B]but Salvation didn't come until I understood that I was a sinner and needed saving. That didn't happen until I was an adult wherein I realized one must be born again[/B], as Jesus said. I so simply BELIEVED who Jesus is (The Lord, Messiah, Savior) and BELIEVED He died for my sins and by so doing, the payment for my sins (and yours) is PAID IN FULL. I can't imagine why anyone wouldn't want to be with the Lord or not serve Him since all my life He's walked and talked with me, but maturity as a Christian did not happen for me until the Salvation "experience." On the chance that anyone reading this is thinking being a Christian is just because they go to church should read the gospel of John and ask the Lord to show them how they need Him in their lives, and how one needs to humble themselves to understand you can't save yourself.
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SAME! I am happy you are saved.
Tracy~ God bless you!! I can relate to every word you have said. It to saddens me to see so many people lost. I have a lot of friends and family right now that think I have just gone crazy, because I want to make my life right with God.
I feel I am losing, although I am fighting with all my might. I also find myself in and out of hope, but then God always brings me back. I think that is how I hold on.
I have lost everyone in my family who is a true believer. I posted before that I had a grandmother and mother who were up lifting. I saw so much Faith in them (my mothers name was Faith). I ignored so much of what they were saying to me. They warned me of all these things that these posts are saying.
My mother started teaching me at 7yrs old. I remember feeling so strong about God. I used to get into heated conversations about it when I went to sleepovers. I even at the young age of 12 wrote a letter to God and my grandfather who passed away when I was 1yrs old. I still have that letter as my mother made several copies and probably gave everyone at our church a copy. It wasn't long after I wrote that letter that I was saved. I was so happy, but then I had secrets in my family that would later push me away from church. Like I said above my mother was a wonderful person, but she married someone who was very set against my mothers Faith and Church. I remember feeling he was the devil. He was a charmer to everyone who did not know him, but evil behind closed doors.
As I grew into my teenage years I rebelled. I hated this man for how he treated my mother and the things he did to my sister. I began to focus on how I would someday be gone from this home. My mothers Faith at church was so strong, but this man had a lot of power over her at home. At that time in my life I felt angry with her for letting him do this to us. This is about the time I began to lose focus on God. I love my mother and forgive her, but it has been hard to understand.
I am now 28 with three beautiful children. I am coming back to God as I feel he is pulling me. My biggest guilt is losing him. I know that I can be forgiven, but I too must repent. My challenge now is that I have a husband that is a good man, but will not repent. He also believes that as long as he believes there is a God and that Jesus Christ our Savior died for our sins, that he to will live the everlasting life. I have tried to explain as best as I can that it is more than saying those words or believing. Sometimes I feel his eyes are so cold when I speak of God, he is mad when he finds me on the computer reading these posts. He has said he will attend church with me, but does not want to hear any of this. I let him push me away once before after 911. He was so angry then when he saw me reading my bible. So I stopped, but then I believe God called me again. So you see when I say I am fighting, I am really fighting. His family is all I really have besides my sister ( who to will not listen). My husbands family takes his side on this matter.
When I say it is God they say it is something else.
Pray for me as I will pray for you. It is a hard road to be on. I never thought it would be this hard. There seems to be more non believers than believers. It's funny, but the day I found this site, I was trying to find some pictures on the explosion of the twin towers. I had been watching the news and they were saying some people believe that christ is coming back and then somehow someone brought up the pictures from 911 saying that some actually believe they saw the devil in the pictures, well then they posted the pictures on the news and I too saw a picture of a mans face. It grabbed me, so I started to try and find it on the net.
I then found this site. I again believe God led me to this site. It is the only place I don't feel alone.
By the way I saw that you were from New Mexico. I just moved to Florida from Farmington, New Mexico. I had this scary feeling about Florida, but since I have been on this site, I don't really feel scared anymore. God has a place and time for all of us. I hope you stay with us.
With Love~Stacy
I feel I am losing, although I am fighting with all my might. I also find myself in and out of hope, but then God always brings me back. I think that is how I hold on.
I have lost everyone in my family who is a true believer. I posted before that I had a grandmother and mother who were up lifting. I saw so much Faith in them (my mothers name was Faith). I ignored so much of what they were saying to me. They warned me of all these things that these posts are saying.
My mother started teaching me at 7yrs old. I remember feeling so strong about God. I used to get into heated conversations about it when I went to sleepovers. I even at the young age of 12 wrote a letter to God and my grandfather who passed away when I was 1yrs old. I still have that letter as my mother made several copies and probably gave everyone at our church a copy. It wasn't long after I wrote that letter that I was saved. I was so happy, but then I had secrets in my family that would later push me away from church. Like I said above my mother was a wonderful person, but she married someone who was very set against my mothers Faith and Church. I remember feeling he was the devil. He was a charmer to everyone who did not know him, but evil behind closed doors.
As I grew into my teenage years I rebelled. I hated this man for how he treated my mother and the things he did to my sister. I began to focus on how I would someday be gone from this home. My mothers Faith at church was so strong, but this man had a lot of power over her at home. At that time in my life I felt angry with her for letting him do this to us. This is about the time I began to lose focus on God. I love my mother and forgive her, but it has been hard to understand.
I am now 28 with three beautiful children. I am coming back to God as I feel he is pulling me. My biggest guilt is losing him. I know that I can be forgiven, but I too must repent. My challenge now is that I have a husband that is a good man, but will not repent. He also believes that as long as he believes there is a God and that Jesus Christ our Savior died for our sins, that he to will live the everlasting life. I have tried to explain as best as I can that it is more than saying those words or believing. Sometimes I feel his eyes are so cold when I speak of God, he is mad when he finds me on the computer reading these posts. He has said he will attend church with me, but does not want to hear any of this. I let him push me away once before after 911. He was so angry then when he saw me reading my bible. So I stopped, but then I believe God called me again. So you see when I say I am fighting, I am really fighting. His family is all I really have besides my sister ( who to will not listen). My husbands family takes his side on this matter.
When I say it is God they say it is something else.
Pray for me as I will pray for you. It is a hard road to be on. I never thought it would be this hard. There seems to be more non believers than believers. It's funny, but the day I found this site, I was trying to find some pictures on the explosion of the twin towers. I had been watching the news and they were saying some people believe that christ is coming back and then somehow someone brought up the pictures from 911 saying that some actually believe they saw the devil in the pictures, well then they posted the pictures on the news and I too saw a picture of a mans face. It grabbed me, so I started to try and find it on the net.
I then found this site. I again believe God led me to this site. It is the only place I don't feel alone.
By the way I saw that you were from New Mexico. I just moved to Florida from Farmington, New Mexico. I had this scary feeling about Florida, but since I have been on this site, I don't really feel scared anymore. God has a place and time for all of us. I hope you stay with us.
With Love~Stacy
Hi Stacy,
I guess you can understand your mother much more now because of your own situation. People make mistakes and eat the fruit of it. You thought (or wanted to think) your husband was a believer...
If anyone out there is thinking of marring a 'borderline believer' think again!
The enemy will rush into that persons life and they will be caught deeper into unbelief and you will be in for the battle of your life. If you truly repent of this and above all FORGIVE YOURSELF! God will take you through the fire.
Also know that the right hand doesn't always have to tell the left hand what it's doing. Sometimes we try to get so close to our mates we suffocate each other.
I guess you can understand your mother much more now because of your own situation. People make mistakes and eat the fruit of it. You thought (or wanted to think) your husband was a believer...
If anyone out there is thinking of marring a 'borderline believer' think again!
The enemy will rush into that persons life and they will be caught deeper into unbelief and you will be in for the battle of your life. If you truly repent of this and above all FORGIVE YOURSELF! God will take you through the fire.
Also know that the right hand doesn't always have to tell the left hand what it's doing. Sometimes we try to get so close to our mates we suffocate each other.
DEAR HEART TRACY~~WELCOME! SO HAPPY YOU ARE HERE!! 
Dear and beloved sister, Stacy.
just now reading your post! i want to, am crying.
but tears of ...oh i don't know...
but that i am happy that you were led here.
and my prayers for you!
and for all who are seeking to the the will of our Father in heaven!
if i could see you, face to face,
i would hug you and cry.
stand firm. and be kind. and trust our Good Father.
welcome here. i certainly rejoice you are here,
as there are many, like you that have no one to speak
with 'in the flesh' or even in their own homes,
about the days we are living in. the times we are living in.
May God be with you and bless you
and may his spirit teach you and all of us that seek him.
you have touched my heart.
welcome and i really look forward to talking with you
here. i too am so thankful to God for this place of refreshment.
love,
bz
stacy, btw...where in florida? i am in sarasota, and our dear friend Rose is also here in florida...near St. Augustine. welcome to the sunshine state!
we also have a friend here, sail, who is in florida too!
weather has just begun to cool a bit here...and the winters are wonderful.
love to hear from you.
tracy and stacy...nowi am REALLY going to get confused...
(you have no idea how my brain just ceases to function well....my memory is
not very good...and i must be responsible for many a blonde joke.)
Dear and beloved sister, Stacy.
just now reading your post! i want to, am crying.
but tears of ...oh i don't know...
but that i am happy that you were led here.
and my prayers for you!
and for all who are seeking to the the will of our Father in heaven!
if i could see you, face to face,
i would hug you and cry.
stand firm. and be kind. and trust our Good Father.
welcome here. i certainly rejoice you are here,
as there are many, like you that have no one to speak
with 'in the flesh' or even in their own homes,
about the days we are living in. the times we are living in.
May God be with you and bless you
and may his spirit teach you and all of us that seek him.
you have touched my heart.
welcome and i really look forward to talking with you
here. i too am so thankful to God for this place of refreshment.
love,
bz
stacy, btw...where in florida? i am in sarasota, and our dear friend Rose is also here in florida...near St. Augustine. welcome to the sunshine state!
we also have a friend here, sail, who is in florida too!
weather has just begun to cool a bit here...and the winters are wonderful.
love to hear from you.
tracy and stacy...nowi am REALLY going to get confused...
(you have no idea how my brain just ceases to function well....my memory is
not very good...and i must be responsible for many a blonde joke.)
Hi Miki,
Your input made lots of since to me. Many thanks!!!
Love~Stacy
Hi Bz,
Thanks for your input as well. I also have many tears. It seems since I shared my heart with friends, my phone rings less. To be true to my heart and everyone else, I sometimes want to go back to the way things were, but I also want God in my heart. I also dwell on that if I had my mother and grandmother I would be stronger. I miss them so much!!
The first time you spoke with me you inspired me. It amazes me how I can truly feel your words. You seem to have kind words for all. I believe you are turly blessed. Thank you so much!! I look forward to hearing from you more.
I live between Ft. Lauderdale and Miami. West side of Miramar. I to like the climate. Have not been through a hurricane yet though, we were moving here when Katrina was coming up the Gulf. We had to make adjustments while we were moving due to Katrina. I remember feeling very sad as I drove through all those states affected by Katrina. I was also very scared not knowing what to expect when we drove through the bands in Ga. and Fl. Very bad weather. I pray that next year won't be so bad.
With Much Love~Stacy
Your input made lots of since to me. Many thanks!!!
Love~Stacy
Hi Bz,
Thanks for your input as well. I also have many tears. It seems since I shared my heart with friends, my phone rings less. To be true to my heart and everyone else, I sometimes want to go back to the way things were, but I also want God in my heart. I also dwell on that if I had my mother and grandmother I would be stronger. I miss them so much!!
The first time you spoke with me you inspired me. It amazes me how I can truly feel your words. You seem to have kind words for all. I believe you are turly blessed. Thank you so much!! I look forward to hearing from you more.
I live between Ft. Lauderdale and Miami. West side of Miramar. I to like the climate. Have not been through a hurricane yet though, we were moving here when Katrina was coming up the Gulf. We had to make adjustments while we were moving due to Katrina. I remember feeling very sad as I drove through all those states affected by Katrina. I was also very scared not knowing what to expect when we drove through the bands in Ga. and Fl. Very bad weather. I pray that next year won't be so bad.
With Much Love~Stacy
[quote=Stacy,Oct 17 2005, 07:19 AM]
Tracy~ God bless you!! I can relate to every word you have said. It to saddens me to see so many people lost. I have a lot of friends and family right now that think I have just gone crazy, because I want to make my life right with God.
I feel I am losing, although I am fighting with all my might. I also find myself in and out of hope, but then God always brings me back. I think that is how I hold on.
I have lost everyone in my family who is a true believer. I posted before that I had a grandmother and mother who were up lifting. I saw so much Faith in them (my mothers name was Faith). I ignored so much of what they were saying to me. They warned me of all these things that these posts are saying.
My mother started teaching me at 7yrs old. I remember feeling so strong about God. I used to get into heated conversations about it when I went to sleepovers. I even at the young age of 12 wrote a letter to God and my grandfather who passed away when I was 1yrs old. I still have that letter as my mother made several copies and probably gave everyone at our church a copy. It wasn't long after I wrote that letter that I was saved. I was so happy, but then I had secrets in my family that would later push me away from church. Like I said above my mother was a wonderful person, but she married someone who was very set against my mothers Faith and Church. I remember feeling he was the devil. He was a charmer to everyone who did not know him, but evil behind closed doors.
As I grew into my teenage years I rebelled. I hated this man for how he treated my mother and the things he did to my sister. I began to focus on how I would someday be gone from this home. My mothers Faith at church was so strong, but this man had a lot of power over her at home. At that time in my life I felt angry with her for letting him do this to us. This is about the time I began to lose focus on God. I love my mother and forgive her, but it has been hard to understand.
I am now 28 with three beautiful children. I am coming back to God as I feel he is pulling me. My biggest guilt is losing him. I know that I can be forgiven, but I too must repent. My challenge now is that I have a husband that is a good man, but will not repent. He also believes that as long as he believes there is a God and that Jesus Christ our Savior died for our sins, that he to will live the everlasting life. I have tried to explain as best as I can that it is more than saying those words or believing. Sometimes I feel his eyes are so cold when I speak of God, he is mad when he finds me on the computer reading these posts. He has said he will attend church with me, but does not want to hear any of this. I let him push me away once before after 911. He was so angry then when he saw me reading my bible. So I stopped, but then I believe God called me again. So you see when I say I am fighting, I am really fighting. His family is all I really have besides my sister ( who to will not listen). My husbands family takes his side on this matter.
When I say it is God they say it is something else.
Pray for me as I will pray for you. It is a hard road to be on. I never thought it would be this hard. There seems to be more non believers than believers. It's funny, but the day I found this site, I was trying to find some pictures on the explosion of the twin towers. I had been watching the news and they were saying some people believe that christ is coming back and then somehow someone brought up the pictures from 911 saying that some actually believe they saw the devil in the pictures, well then they posted the pictures on the news and I too saw a picture of a mans face. It grabbed me, so I started to try and find it on the net.
I then found this site. I again believe God led me to this site. It is the only place I don't feel alone.
By the way I saw that you were from New Mexico. I just moved to Florida from Farmington, New Mexico. I had this scary feeling about Florida, but since I have been on this site, I don't really feel scared anymore. God has a place and time for all of us. I hope you stay with us.
With Love~Stacy
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Stacy..
Victory and Peace to you through the LORD Jesus Christ.
I just read your post. My heart hurts for you but I also know that Jesus will
give you all that you need to have peace within yourself. Jesus said, "In the
world you shall have persecution but be of good cheer I have overcome the world."
The word of God will empower you to face any adversity.
Whenever you have the chance, get your bible out. Pray to Jesus your savior
before you read His Word. He is the Lamb that takes away your sin. After bringing
to him all of your sins and shortcomings ask of the Father in Jesus' name to give you the Holy Ghost to teach you. Then read his Word with the mindset of doing
whatever it tells you to do. He will open your eyes and feed you the Bread of life.
Read the new testament first. Also, try to read at least one Psalm per day and one
chapter from proverbs. God will counsel you in the way of life.
One scripture that came to my mind as I read your post was 1Peter 3:1-6. The
position that you are in with your husband's resistance is horrible but not the end
of the world. 1Peter 1:1,2 says that you can win him without saying a word to him
as he beholds your chaste behavior. You just stay obedient to Jesus and keep praying for your husband. Do not fall into the gossip trap. Do not speak negatively
about your husband but instead you can please God by being the woman he(God) wants you to be. God will lead you. Be kind and gentle. Show him the love of Jesus. We are called to love our enemies and sometimes it's our spouses. We are
told in the word of God to not repay evil for evil but rather to overcome evil with
good. Soon you will reap a great harvest if you sow the seeds of love.
Pleas visit the forum and keep in touch. You can PM or e-mail me or anyone and
our prayers and support will always be with you.
You will be in my prayers.
Peace, Tom
Tracy~ God bless you!! I can relate to every word you have said. It to saddens me to see so many people lost. I have a lot of friends and family right now that think I have just gone crazy, because I want to make my life right with God.
I feel I am losing, although I am fighting with all my might. I also find myself in and out of hope, but then God always brings me back. I think that is how I hold on.
I have lost everyone in my family who is a true believer. I posted before that I had a grandmother and mother who were up lifting. I saw so much Faith in them (my mothers name was Faith). I ignored so much of what they were saying to me. They warned me of all these things that these posts are saying.
My mother started teaching me at 7yrs old. I remember feeling so strong about God. I used to get into heated conversations about it when I went to sleepovers. I even at the young age of 12 wrote a letter to God and my grandfather who passed away when I was 1yrs old. I still have that letter as my mother made several copies and probably gave everyone at our church a copy. It wasn't long after I wrote that letter that I was saved. I was so happy, but then I had secrets in my family that would later push me away from church. Like I said above my mother was a wonderful person, but she married someone who was very set against my mothers Faith and Church. I remember feeling he was the devil. He was a charmer to everyone who did not know him, but evil behind closed doors.
As I grew into my teenage years I rebelled. I hated this man for how he treated my mother and the things he did to my sister. I began to focus on how I would someday be gone from this home. My mothers Faith at church was so strong, but this man had a lot of power over her at home. At that time in my life I felt angry with her for letting him do this to us. This is about the time I began to lose focus on God. I love my mother and forgive her, but it has been hard to understand.
I am now 28 with three beautiful children. I am coming back to God as I feel he is pulling me. My biggest guilt is losing him. I know that I can be forgiven, but I too must repent. My challenge now is that I have a husband that is a good man, but will not repent. He also believes that as long as he believes there is a God and that Jesus Christ our Savior died for our sins, that he to will live the everlasting life. I have tried to explain as best as I can that it is more than saying those words or believing. Sometimes I feel his eyes are so cold when I speak of God, he is mad when he finds me on the computer reading these posts. He has said he will attend church with me, but does not want to hear any of this. I let him push me away once before after 911. He was so angry then when he saw me reading my bible. So I stopped, but then I believe God called me again. So you see when I say I am fighting, I am really fighting. His family is all I really have besides my sister ( who to will not listen). My husbands family takes his side on this matter.
When I say it is God they say it is something else.
Pray for me as I will pray for you. It is a hard road to be on. I never thought it would be this hard. There seems to be more non believers than believers. It's funny, but the day I found this site, I was trying to find some pictures on the explosion of the twin towers. I had been watching the news and they were saying some people believe that christ is coming back and then somehow someone brought up the pictures from 911 saying that some actually believe they saw the devil in the pictures, well then they posted the pictures on the news and I too saw a picture of a mans face. It grabbed me, so I started to try and find it on the net.
I then found this site. I again believe God led me to this site. It is the only place I don't feel alone.
By the way I saw that you were from New Mexico. I just moved to Florida from Farmington, New Mexico. I had this scary feeling about Florida, but since I have been on this site, I don't really feel scared anymore. God has a place and time for all of us. I hope you stay with us.
With Love~Stacy
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Stacy..
Victory and Peace to you through the LORD Jesus Christ.
I just read your post. My heart hurts for you but I also know that Jesus will
give you all that you need to have peace within yourself. Jesus said, "In the
world you shall have persecution but be of good cheer I have overcome the world."
The word of God will empower you to face any adversity.
Whenever you have the chance, get your bible out. Pray to Jesus your savior
before you read His Word. He is the Lamb that takes away your sin. After bringing
to him all of your sins and shortcomings ask of the Father in Jesus' name to give you the Holy Ghost to teach you. Then read his Word with the mindset of doing
whatever it tells you to do. He will open your eyes and feed you the Bread of life.
Read the new testament first. Also, try to read at least one Psalm per day and one
chapter from proverbs. God will counsel you in the way of life.
One scripture that came to my mind as I read your post was 1Peter 3:1-6. The
position that you are in with your husband's resistance is horrible but not the end
of the world. 1Peter 1:1,2 says that you can win him without saying a word to him
as he beholds your chaste behavior. You just stay obedient to Jesus and keep praying for your husband. Do not fall into the gossip trap. Do not speak negatively
about your husband but instead you can please God by being the woman he(God) wants you to be. God will lead you. Be kind and gentle. Show him the love of Jesus. We are called to love our enemies and sometimes it's our spouses. We are
told in the word of God to not repay evil for evil but rather to overcome evil with
good. Soon you will reap a great harvest if you sow the seeds of love.
Pleas visit the forum and keep in touch. You can PM or e-mail me or anyone and
our prayers and support will always be with you.
You will be in my prayers.
Peace, Tom
Welcome Tracy! Glad you are here. 
Hello there Tracy ....
so glad you found this place .. it is most encouraging and uplifting .
I'm sorry to hear of your struggle and I can relate to the problems that your experiencing with your husband ..... living in a divided household is a challange that's for sure .....
My husband always told me, do whatever it takes to make you happy ... but once I got going with my spiritual journey and doing the will of the Father, his deminier changed dramatically from supportive and loving to being jealous and disruptive anytime I had the bible in my hands..... from being able to discuss scriptures with him for hours on end showing him new insights and him standing in awe .... to him calling me a fanatic and making fun of spiritual things, putting me down right infront of my children ....
My tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth most of the time ... I have no words for what is going on and how to change the situation ... I have tried everything ....
Many times I feel like LOT ... living in sodom and gomorah ( spelling? ) ... the things that I have to listen to and witnesses distresses me immensly and makes it so hard to live a Godly life.
We truly are strangers to this world ... to the things people say and do ... especially if there is no one around to share the beauty of the gospel with in ones own household.
Hang on tight to your first love and fight hard .... pray and ask the Father to soften the heart of your husband ... keep fighting for your faith with mildness and long suffering.
Much affection always, LC
so glad you found this place .. it is most encouraging and uplifting .
I'm sorry to hear of your struggle and I can relate to the problems that your experiencing with your husband ..... living in a divided household is a challange that's for sure .....
My husband always told me, do whatever it takes to make you happy ... but once I got going with my spiritual journey and doing the will of the Father, his deminier changed dramatically from supportive and loving to being jealous and disruptive anytime I had the bible in my hands..... from being able to discuss scriptures with him for hours on end showing him new insights and him standing in awe .... to him calling me a fanatic and making fun of spiritual things, putting me down right infront of my children ....
My tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth most of the time ... I have no words for what is going on and how to change the situation ... I have tried everything ....
Many times I feel like LOT ... living in sodom and gomorah ( spelling? ) ... the things that I have to listen to and witnesses distresses me immensly and makes it so hard to live a Godly life.
We truly are strangers to this world ... to the things people say and do ... especially if there is no one around to share the beauty of the gospel with in ones own household.
Hang on tight to your first love and fight hard .... pray and ask the Father to soften the heart of your husband ... keep fighting for your faith with mildness and long suffering.
Much affection always, LC
Wow, I was just thinking last night to start a topic that has already been brought up in this post.... 
I was wondering how many were married to spouses who were not spiritually on the same page. I know in my home, my husband is NOT where I am. When I am excited about something and try to share it with him he looks at me like I have 3 heads , not really funny but....and we disagree on things with the children. Such as Halloween coming up, 
I hate that day. Anyway, all of sudden he is saying "what's the big deal if the kids dress up for school? We did it when we were kids, we turned out o.k., everyone else does it" I try to tell him what we did as kids doesn't make it right in God's eyes. I will stand before God to be judged one day and I can't allow my children to do something I feel in my heart is wrong and against God. But he doesn't see it like that.
Then there was a time in the past, he started reading the Bible, on his own. I was shocked and thrilled. But that was very short lived. It seems everytime I try to read or I am on here talking about the Lord he gets himself in a tizzy. Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
I can see by reading here that I am not alone. There are alot of us that have spouses that are not where we are, it makes life so hard at times. I just hope that one day God will remove the blinders from his eyes so he can see what I see. I can only plant the seeds the rest is up to God.
In my heart, I really think that one day when something really BIG happens and he can see that I am not moved, shaken or afriad that will be a turning point for him. I can only pray that he can see this before it is too late.
I was wondering how many were married to spouses who were not spiritually on the same page. I know in my home, my husband is NOT where I am. When I am excited about something and try to share it with him he looks at me like I have 3 heads
, not really funny but....and we disagree on things with the children. Such as Halloween coming up, I hate that day. Anyway, all of sudden he is saying "what's the big deal if the kids dress up for school? We did it when we were kids, we turned out o.k., everyone else does it" I try to tell him what we did as kids doesn't make it right in God's eyes. I will stand before God to be judged one day and I can't allow my children to do something I feel in my heart is wrong and against God. But he doesn't see it like that. Then there was a time in the past, he started reading the Bible, on his own. I was shocked and thrilled. But that was very short lived. It seems everytime I try to read or I am on here talking about the Lord he gets himself in a tizzy. Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
I can see by reading here that I am not alone. There are alot of us that have spouses that are not where we are, it makes life so hard at times. I just hope that one day God will remove the blinders from his eyes so he can see what I see. I can only plant the seeds the rest is up to God.
In my heart, I really think that one day when something really BIG happens and he can see that I am not moved, shaken or afriad that will be a turning point for him. I can only pray that he can see this before it is too late.
Amen Karen. You are not alone. Same thing goes on in my house... and my kids are hating me right now because I don't do Halloween. They walk past other people's homes that have pumpkins and skeletons, spiderwebs, and bats hanging from the trees and think that it's soooo cool. I keep reminding them that Halloween is the DEVIL's holiday. They seem to understand, but they want the fun too! Bleh... and my hubby, he's Christian, but it doesn't matter to him. He plays World of Warcraft on the computer, now our kids are following suit, and they are into the Star Wars stuff. It makes me ill... I wish it could change, but a heart change has to come. I refuse to watch the stuff they do... I feel like a mean mom, but it's just not right!
[quote=lovingHIM,Oct 27 2005, 03:20 PM]
Wow, I was just thinking last night to start a topic that has already been brought up in this post....
I was wondering how many were married to spouses who were not spiritually on the same page. I know in my home, my husband is NOT where I am. When I am excited about something and try to share it with him he looks at me like I have 3 heads , not really funny but....and we disagree on things with the children. Such as Halloween coming up, I hate that day. Anyway, all of sudden he is saying "what's the big deal if the kids dress up for school? We did it when we were kids, we turned out o.k., everyone else does it" I try to tell him what we did as kids doesn't make it right in God's eyes. I will stand before God to be judged one day and I can't allow my children to do something I feel in my heart is wrong and against God. But he doesn't see it like that.
Then there was a time in the past, he started reading the Bible, on his own. I was shocked and thrilled. But that was very short lived. It seems everytime I try to read or I am on here talking about the Lord he gets himself in a tizzy. Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
I can see by reading here that I am not alone. There are alot of us that have spouses that are not where we are, it makes life so hard at times. I just hope that one day God will remove the blinders from his eyes so he can see what I see. I can only plant the seeds the rest is up to God.
In my heart, I really think that one day when something really BIG happens and he can see that I am not moved, shaken or afriad that will be a turning point for him. I can only pray that he can see this before it is too late.
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[quote=lovingHIM,Oct 27 2005, 03:20 PM]
Wow, I was just thinking last night to start a topic that has already been brought up in this post....
I was wondering how many were married to spouses who were not spiritually on the same page. I know in my home, my husband is NOT where I am. When I am excited about something and try to share it with him he looks at me like I have 3 heads
, not really funny but....and we disagree on things with the children. Such as Halloween coming up, I hate that day. Anyway, all of sudden he is saying "what's the big deal if the kids dress up for school? We did it when we were kids, we turned out o.k., everyone else does it" I try to tell him what we did as kids doesn't make it right in God's eyes. I will stand before God to be judged one day and I can't allow my children to do something I feel in my heart is wrong and against God. But he doesn't see it like that. Then there was a time in the past, he started reading the Bible, on his own. I was shocked and thrilled. But that was very short lived. It seems everytime I try to read or I am on here talking about the Lord he gets himself in a tizzy. Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
I can see by reading here that I am not alone. There are alot of us that have spouses that are not where we are, it makes life so hard at times. I just hope that one day God will remove the blinders from his eyes so he can see what I see. I can only plant the seeds the rest is up to God.
In my heart, I really think that one day when something really BIG happens and he can see that I am not moved, shaken or afriad that will be a turning point for him. I can only pray that he can see this before it is too late.
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Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
lovingHIM ... this is exactly what goes on in my home 
We have a computer in our living room .. I'm about 6 feet away from him when I sit and read the posts and it' still not good enough for him.... the way he watches TV drives me crazy because he constandly changes the channels and the things he watches is just discusting ... He doesn't care if the kids are around either and I always have to remind him to change the channel.
The only time I have now adays is right before I go to bed ... I have a computer in my bedroom ... but he has taken it upon himself to check in one me now and make sure im in bed when I say that I'm going to bed .... I feel like a prisoner that isn't allowed to do anything other than be a maid for everyone else and who has no freedom what-so-ever when it comes to ones own needs.
It's so sad that we have to hide and steal the time just to look at our Fathers words ... makes me feel like a criminal sometimes
much love to you always .... and keep holding on , LC
lovingHIM ... this is exactly what goes on in my home
We have a computer in our living room .. I'm about 6 feet away from him when I sit and read the posts and it' still not good enough for him.... the way he watches TV drives me crazy because he constandly changes the channels and the things he watches is just discusting ... He doesn't care if the kids are around either and I always have to remind him to change the channel.
The only time I have now adays is right before I go to bed ... I have a computer in my bedroom ... but he has taken it upon himself to check in one me now and make sure im in bed when I say that I'm going to bed .... I feel like a prisoner that isn't allowed to do anything other than be a maid for everyone else and who has no freedom what-so-ever when it comes to ones own needs.
It's so sad that we have to hide and steal the time just to look at our Fathers words ... makes me feel like a criminal sometimes
much love to you always .... and keep holding on , LC
abjah58 wrote: "the way he watches TV drives me crazy because he constandly changes the channels and the things he watches is just discusting ... He doesn't care if the kids are around either and I always have to remind him to change the channel."
Here too!! Especially the part you said "he constandly changes the changes the channels" that drives me crazy. From one bad show to another. And my husband also walks in to our bedroom when I say I am going to the bathroom to see if I am on the computer. He knows I am on here. This is the only site I go to.
I have to run to pick up my daughter from school but I will write more later.
I think this topic could use it's own thread.
I hate to see someone miss this who is in the same boat.
Here too!! Especially the part you said "he constandly changes the changes the channels" that drives me crazy. From one bad show to another. And my husband also walks in to our bedroom when I say I am going to the bathroom to see if I am on the computer. He knows I am on here. This is the only site I go to. I have to run to pick up my daughter from school but I will write more later.
I think this topic could use it's own thread.
I hate to see someone miss this who is in the same boat.
[quote=lovingHIM,Oct 27 2005, 02:20 PM]
Wow, I was just thinking last night to start a topic that has already been brought up in this post....
I was wondering how many were married to spouses who were not spiritually on the same page. I know in my home, my husband is NOT where I am. When I am excited about something and try to share it with him he looks at me like I have 3 heads , not really funny but....and we disagree on things with the children. Such as Halloween coming up, I hate that day. Anyway, all of sudden he is saying "what's the big deal if the kids dress up for school? We did it when we were kids, we turned out o.k., everyone else does it" I try to tell him what we did as kids doesn't make it right in God's eyes. I will stand before God to be judged one day and I can't allow my children to do something I feel in my heart is wrong and against God. But he doesn't see it like that.
Then there was a time in the past, he started reading the Bible, on his own. I was shocked and thrilled. But that was very short lived. It seems everytime I try to read or I am on here talking about the Lord he gets himself in a tizzy. Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
I can see by reading here that I am not alone. There are alot of us that have spouses that are not where we are, it makes life so hard at times. I just hope that one day God will remove the blinders from his eyes so he can see what I see. I can only plant the seeds the rest is up to God.
In my heart, I really think that one day when something really BIG happens and he can see that I am not moved, shaken or afriad that will be a turning point for him. I can only pray that he can see this before it is too late.
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I have the same problem with my husband. When we watch t.v. all we find is shows about gay's or someone sleeping with some one elses wife etc....
This is not funny to me any more. Ashow where there is cussing on it I will watch him laugh. It just not funny to me. I know he is searching for answers but it's hard at times. he will read the post on the forum once and a while. I think that is what the bible talks about when it says to be equally yoke. We have to help our marriage partner to become equal. We can do this by becoming a better wittness. They will watch us when we dont even know it. We are being watched every second. Your post is a great prayer.
Kim
Wow, I was just thinking last night to start a topic that has already been brought up in this post....
I was wondering how many were married to spouses who were not spiritually on the same page. I know in my home, my husband is NOT where I am. When I am excited about something and try to share it with him he looks at me like I have 3 heads
, not really funny but....and we disagree on things with the children. Such as Halloween coming up, I hate that day. Anyway, all of sudden he is saying "what's the big deal if the kids dress up for school? We did it when we were kids, we turned out o.k., everyone else does it" I try to tell him what we did as kids doesn't make it right in God's eyes. I will stand before God to be judged one day and I can't allow my children to do something I feel in my heart is wrong and against God. But he doesn't see it like that. Then there was a time in the past, he started reading the Bible, on his own. I was shocked and thrilled. But that was very short lived. It seems everytime I try to read or I am on here talking about the Lord he gets himself in a tizzy. Or he'll say "why don't you sit with me and watch t.v.?" I do not like half the shows he watches. I don't want to sit in that room and listen to the filth that is coming out of the t.v. I'd rather be in my room with my praise music on and reading on here and having discussions that are of interest to me.
I can see by reading here that I am not alone. There are alot of us that have spouses that are not where we are, it makes life so hard at times. I just hope that one day God will remove the blinders from his eyes so he can see what I see. I can only plant the seeds the rest is up to God.
In my heart, I really think that one day when something really BIG happens and he can see that I am not moved, shaken or afriad that will be a turning point for him. I can only pray that he can see this before it is too late.
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lovingHIM
I have the same problem with my husband. When we watch t.v. all we find is shows about gay's or someone sleeping with some one elses wife etc....
This is not funny to me any more. Ashow where there is cussing on it I will watch him laugh. It just not funny to me. I know he is searching for answers but it's hard at times. he will read the post on the forum once and a while. I think that is what the bible talks about when it says to be equally yoke. We have to help our marriage partner to become equal. We can do this by becoming a better wittness. They will watch us when we dont even know it. We are being watched every second. Your post is a great prayer.
Kim
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