This is what I wrote today about what has happened in my life and what I believe today. I was writing about what happened to me yesterday and what I did about it and I can say today that I have been born again.

I began to talk about my past, specifically about hypocrites when I noticed that I had almost written a short story about my life! I had just kept going, describing my childhood and the fears that I held inside and never told anyone. I wanted people to know. To know that I was not who they thought I was. That by writing this message, I was letting go of it all. Originally I did not set out with this goal, but since I have written all that I have, I see what my writing has done. It has freed me from that darkness that held me for so long. By God's grace alone, I did nothing to deserve the light He gave me, I was simply blessed with people who prayed for me and blessed with my own desire to see Him. Just since I began writing yesterday, I have been made new. I now see that the accusing voice in my head was not me and it was not God. I think we all know who it was, the only one who causes death. But I testify today that he has now died his own death, Jesus Christ has shown His power and it is the greatest, even the devil's lies are put away by Him. I have seen the answers to prayer over my life just by my ability to say this today. I did nothing but let Him show me. Matthew is a beautiful person and so strong in the faith, but he is nothing compared to Jesus Christ, and he tells me that every time I compliment him. Matthew and I are not to be admired, we have just been given grace so that we may extend it to those around us who need it. And my heart has always burned for those I love, people who deserve death but I wish nothing but love and mercy, as does Jesus Christ. Because I have seen the power of prayer in my own life, what I will do for those I love is simply to pray and to love them. I now believe that prayer silences the devil, that serpent who whispers in my ear, he who wants to deny Jesus's power. I will pray for God's people to brought out from darkness and to see Him. I ask for nothing but to see those around me walk in the light as I believe I start to. I am not asking for people to look to me, but to look to Him who has called me.

This is beautiful. Your heart to see others set free is so genuine and loving. I love to hear of people being broken and set free............


BROKEN AND BEAUTIFUL

Well praise God...You shook our your shoes!! Praise God your heart burns!! Keep the candle burning and thanks for this timely post. (See Pacific NW Storm under currant events!)

... Who is Matthew???

Thank you for your encouragement!! I still feel wonderful! And I finished my testimony and placed it on a website this weekend: http://www.webpages.ttu.edu/jodiwils/ It's pretty long, but I felt I needed to put it out there, to let people know who I really am, what I've gone through, and what I've learned.

Matthew is my boyfriend, and I can't wait to marry him!! His name means "gift of God," and I sure do believe that!! He is perfect for me, and he has seen every side of me and he's seen me at my absolute worst, but he still loves me! I KNOW that is from God, if we don't even know why we attracted to each other, but we are and we never want to leave each other!! The best part is that he's a strong Christian. I don't want to get too into it, but I could talk a lot about how God has arranged this :>

BTW Miki, you spoke of Jacob and I know others have recently and I've read a lot about Jacob and the funny/scary/weird thing is that the self-proclaimed angel who has been holding me back, his name is James which derives from Jacob. He believes that I am in darkness (maybe I was, but I definately am not now and I don't see how he was guiding me out of it) but the more I think about him, the more I think that he is in darkness.

Haha I don't know, sometimes I over-analyze, I'm thinking I should stop that.

Thank you for your encouragement!! I still feel wonderful! And I finished my testimony and placed it on a website this weekend: http://www.webpages.ttu.edu/jodiwils/ It's pretty long, but I felt I needed to put it out there, to let people know who I really am, what I've gone through, and what I've learned.

Matthew is my boyfriend, and I can't wait to marry him!! His name means "gift of God," and I sure do believe that!! He is perfect for me, and he has seen every side of me and he's seen me at my absolute worst, but he still loves me! I KNOW that is from God, if we don't even know why we attracted to each other, but we are and we never want to leave each other!! The best part is that he's a strong Christian. I don't want to get too into it, but I could talk a lot about how God has arranged this :>

BTW Miki, you spoke of Jacob and I know others have recently and I've read a lot about Jacob and the funny/scary/weird thing is that the self-proclaimed angel who has been holding me back, his name is James which derives from Jacob. He believes that I am in darkness (maybe I was, but I definately am not now and I don't see how he was guiding me out of it) but the more I think about him, the more I think that he is in darkness.

Haha I don't know, sometimes I over-analyze, I'm thinking I should stop that.

Honey...the Lord himself is leading you into the fullness of his light and power. Forget angels.

Jacob is symbolic of the name of someone before they wrestle with God...As Jacob did...He was given a new name. God blessed him and called him Israel. We all wrestle this way.

Some people can't see past the darkness we allow to surround us but the Lord knows the work he's begun in our hearts.
A candle burning.

The power soon goes on and all will see the Lords Glorious work.

His work in your life is evident to me.

And we all sing!

Give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning.
give me oil in my lamp, I pray. Alleluia!
Give me oil in my lamp,
keep me burning. burning, burning,
keep me burning till the break of day
keep me burning till the break of day.