I had a hard life emotionally growing up. No place to call home by the age of 12 I'd lived in 14 different houses.
At five my parents divorced and I slowly relized my father was dieing.
At 8 I missed the first week of third grade as we burried my father.
two years with a wonderful step father my mother left for foolish reasons
4 years with an abusive step father many houses. I felt safer out of the home than in it.

Desparate to just commit suiside at the age of 14 I literally found my self planning the fastest and most painless way to kill myself. I found myself one night just begging the G-d of the Universe to make me not afraide to die so that I could end it all.

Suddenly I was was being taken by someone across a great dark expanse toward a light. As I drew near to a throne with a the glory of G-d shining our from it all fear of death left me. I had drawn near but not into the thrown room. Yet the love of His presence had filled me with hope and with strength.

As I came out of the vision I remember gasping for breathe. Like I had literally died and come back. I had the words of our Lord in my mind, " I will never leave you or forsake you"

I not only no longer wanted to kill myself, but I wanted to live for G-d and G-d led me to read his scriptures daily. Struggles have been many since that day, but always the presence of G-d has been with me. Probaby the most detrimental practice I've had over the years was a habit to get apathetic toward G-d and his scriptures.

About 6 years ago it almost cost me the life of my son, and so I've been more motivated by him to keep plugging away even when it is hard, with a goal of reading through the bible yearly by scripture reading and prayer time 3 times a day. I figure if I succeed 1/3 of the time I should be able to manage to get my daily bread... Kind of like setting the clocks ahead to be on time.

I was saved iwthout man made confessions. Literally no work of my own. Later learned some basics and got baptized for the remission of sins.

About 14 years ago I ran across a passage in scripture I saw like it was for the first time. "Keep the Passover and the feast of unleavened bread forever" The third time I read over that statement I showed them all to my husband and we have kept the Passover ever since. This was my beginning of understanding Torah observance and more recently this past year, l looked at myself and decided I needed to observe the Mikveh/immersion according to the laws that pertain for women. I realized I was no longer even of the same understanding of theology as I began and I started by immersing for repentance of the old theology and to Covenant with G-d.

'Born Again" are the words traditionally used when coming up out of the living waters. For me, there is true life in being conformed to the image of my savior. May I be dead to the flesh and live to the spirit.

blessings
bananna

You are indeed blessed, Banana. Thank you for sharing your story with us and thanks to Yahweh for saving you.

Can you pay him back for this?

and Yehoshuah said:





Please note Miki,
I have 13 children. That too is a Mitzvah. A joy and a wonder to behold. I am not one of those that picks and chooses, rather I am called and I say,
"Here I am Lord, your servant"

I show my love the the Father and the Son by keeping His commandments.

My children love me, they keep my commandments. When they hate me they do not. When they do not trust me, they do not keep my commandments. When they Fear me they keep them.

When they are old they no longer fear me and they keep my commandments out of love for me and trust in my wisdom.

Neither to I fear God's wrath. I keep God's precepts, because HE alone is worthy. Because I trust him above all others. Because I love him with every breath I take. I keep not only His commandments, but I preserve their intent to teach and train and instruct and rebuke.

Those who do not follow the speed limit do not understand love.

Bananna

Thank you so much for sharing with us!

Yahweh IS so AWESOME

Hugs and

Bat Yah

I was standing at a woodpile. I had been through an emotional time. Suddenly I was overcome with great peace. I knew who I was and I knew Who and What God was.

Just as Yeshua Mashiac said...we could be where He is.

Just as Yeshua Mashiac said..."Yae are gods"!

Just as Yeshua Mashiac said..."others will come after me who will do greater things than I".

Those to whom the torah was give where like gods to the rest of the world. While we can accomplish great things and I'm sure someone will literally end up tossing a whole mountain into the sea, we are most certainly humble servants of the God most High and Yeshua our head commands this his army. Doing great things does not make us greater than the one who saved us.

bananna

Hey Banana, are you Jewish? Because you say you want to keep Passover and Unleavened Bread...
I myself am not Jewish but I do believe in the influence and meaning of the Jewish feasts because God has said this would be a statute forever. I do believe that in the Millennium, we will all be celebrating the Jewish feasts!

Shalom Dear sister,
I am a Torah observant Gentile. I am in the process of learning to keep all the commanded feasts of YHVH.

I accept that some traditions are necessary for understanding how to keep these well, but know that the traditions of men are not binding on any believer.

Blessings to you as you learn to follow the Way the Truth and the Life of Living Torah.

bananna

Praise God. The Passover is being kept by Christians forever as well. So is the Feast of Unleavened Bread.
As we constantly keep the blood of the Lamb on the doorposts of our hearts and we eat the whole Lamb of God (the Word) we are forever partaking in the Passover. The same with the Feast of Unleavened Bread. : Every day as we make a decision to only believe the Word and read it as it is, without the added leaven of works (remember that was the warning of Jesus against the teaching of the Pharisees: They taught observance of the Law (works) and Jesus said that was leaven) So we partake of the Word of Grace and we add no leaven, then you and I are always practising the Feast of Unleavened Bread.

Israel was the people of the Letter
Spiritual Israel (us) we are the people of the Spirit
So we translate all that has been given in the letter...............to the spirit.

So yes: the Passover and Feast of Unleavened Bread will and cannot stop. It is forever. In fact you and I cannot be Christian if we do not partake of it .................not in the Letter............but in the Spirit.

Remember that the Rom 2:29 but he is a Jew who is one inwardly; and circumcision is that of the heart, in the spirit not in the letter; whose praise is not of men, but of God.

and

Rom 7:6 But now we have been discharged from the law, having died to that wherein we were held; so that we serve in newness of the spirit, and not in oldness of the letter.

Here is an example: In the time of Israel. God told them to take up the sword against their enemies.

Lev 26:7 And ye shall chase your enemies, and they shall fall before you by the sword.
This is a real sword. It is in the letter.....it is real.

Now we move to the NT...the side of the spirit:
Eph 6:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
Eph 6:12 For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world-rulers of this darkness, against the spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
So what happened to:you shall chase your enemies , and they shall fall before you by the sword? It translated into the spirit ! Now we are actually stronger as a Christian, because we are able to fight against the principal force behind and not the symptom in the people.
The same with the Passover and actually all the other feasts. They truly have meaning and we are suppose to translate them into the spirit.

Here is another: The Sabbath. We are still to keep it. But not a day, we are to permanently rest from our works. (man's efforts) and trust God to fulfill His promises. We are not to use the arm of the flesh, but trust in God's power. If not: God swears that we will not enter into His rest (Sabbath) By Him saying that He will deny access into the Rest, we can see He is not talking about a day of doing nothing, but again a spiritual situation of faith (So if we do not believe: God denies entrance) If it is today still a day nothing prevents you from doing nothing............so God is talking about something else.
love C

1Co 10:11 Now these things happened unto them by way of example; and they were written for our admonition, upon whom the ends of the ages are come.

As you can see : the Old Testament is an example. Its a shadow. Its a type.
What is a shadow?
It is darkness that is formed when something stands in the light (Light) The real object stands in the light and casts a shadow.Col 2:16 Let no man therefore judge you in meat, or in drink, or in respect of a feast day or a new moon or a sabbath day:
Col 2:17 which are a shadow of the things to come; but the body is Christ's.

The Law was also only a shadow:Heb 10:1 For the law having a shadow of the good things to come, not the very image of the things, (see: the law was not the real image ) can never with the same sacrifices year by year, which they offer continually, make perfect them that draw nigh.

We can even see this when we look at the Old Testament. It speaks "in the spirit" to those who have eyes to see:Jos 1:1 Now it came to pass after the death of Moses (Now remember that Moses represents the Law) the servant of Jehovah, that Jehovah spake unto Joshua (We know that the Hebrew name for Joshia is the same as Jesus, so here it is speaking of Jesus prophetically) the son of Nun, Moses' minister, saying,
Jos 1:2 Moses my servant is dead;(The Law is dead and crucified with Christ) now therefore arise, go over this Jordan, (The Jordan represents death to self) thou, and all this people, unto the land which I do give to them, even to the children of Israel. (The land is the Bible and its promises (the Promise(d) Land) ) (We are now spiritual Israel)
There are many other examples of this in the Bible.

Look with the eyes of the spirit !

love C

PS: Here is the Promise(d) Land: Enter it by faith and death to self:
2Co 7:1 Having therefore these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all defilement of flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.

How? Here is a "shadow" that tells us how:Deu 11:24 Every place whereon the sole of your foot shall tread shall be yours.
So stand on the promise and it will be yours. Rest from your efforts (enter the Sabbath) and see how God will bring His Word to pass if you stand in faith and not change your mind

The Word is eternal (it is Jesus Christ) and is ever true


Col 3:16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly; in all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts unto God.

Exd 20:6
And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments.
Deu 5:10
And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me and keep my commandments.
Deu 7:9
Know therefore that the LORD thy God, he [is] God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;
Deu 11:1
Therefore thou shalt love the LORD thy God, and keep his charge, and his statutes, and his judgments, and his commandments, alway.
Deu 11:13
And it shall come to pass, if ye shall hearken diligently unto my commandments which I command you this day, to love the LORD your God, and to serve him with all your heart and with all your soul,
Deu 11:22
For if ye shall diligently keep all these commandments which I command you, to do them, to love the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, and to cleave unto him;
Deu 19:9
If thou shalt keep all these commandments to do them, which I command thee this day, to love the LORD thy God, and to walk ever in his ways; then shalt thou add three cities more for thee, beside these three:
Deu 30:16
In that I command thee this day to love the LORD thy God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commandments and his statutes and his judgments, that thou mayest live and multiply: and the LORD thy God shall bless thee in the land whither thou goest to possess it.
Jos 22:5
But take diligent heed to do the commandment and the law, which Moses the servant of the LORD charged you, to love the LORD your God, and to walk in all his ways, and to keep his commandments, and to cleave unto him, and to serve him with all your heart and with all your soul.
Neh 1:5
And said, I beseech thee, O LORD God of heaven, the great and terrible God, that keepeth covenant and mercy for them that love him and observe his commandments:
Psa 119:127
Therefore I love thy commandments above gold; yea, above fine gold.
Dan 9:4
And I prayed unto the LORD my God, and made my confession, and said, O Lord, the great and dreadful God, keeping the covenant and mercy to them that love him, and to them that keep his commandments;
Jhn 14:15
If ye love me, keep my commandments.
Jhn 14:21
He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.
Jhn 15:10
If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love.
1Jo 5:2
By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God, and keep his commandments. 1Jo 5:3
For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous. 2Jo 1:6
And this is love, that we walk after his commandments. This is the commandment, That, as ye have heard from the beginning, ye should walk in it.


Those to whom much is given, much will be expected. Those to whom little is given little will be expected. Those who refuse to multiply the gifts and the calling will depart from the master as workers of iniquity their gifts will be taken from them and given to another.

I am not going to argue the law with you. You are misunderstanding me if you think that I in any way teach that we should be disobedient to the moral laws of God. I still honour my parents and love my neighbor , I do not steal etc. but I do not sacrifice, nor stay away for seven days from my people because I touched a dead person. I rest from my own works and thus keep the Sabbath.I eat pork, because the Bible tells me it is fine to do that. I have seen the truth of Jesus translating the letter into the spirit for us.
I partake of the unleavened Bread daily and keep that feast. I listen to the law that is written on my heart and live a life that is pleasing to my Father, because He wrote that on my heart.
love C

Very nice to meet you C May God bless and Keep you.

Bananna

Thank you Bananna, and I pray His blessings over you as well
love C