Hi all,
Ive been in and out of this site for months now so It's on my heart to share my testimony with you all.Hope the LORD fills whoevers eyes fall on this with engoragement to fuel their fire by the grace of GOD HALLELUJAY.Amen.
I come from a catholic backround.I was brought to mass when I was young but it was all for trational perposes.So I fell away after this in my early teens.Started drinking and taking drugs during this period and also entered in to a dark part of my life tortured with depression,filled with rage and resentment carried over from my childhood years,suffered suicidal thoughts and a broken heart.I cried inside with a worldly sorrow for years and have a scar on my wrist due to self inflicted damage.
When I started to come out of this I discovered a gift for writing poetry and making it flow with a beat,which would be what is known as rap or hiphop.So I was expressing myself through this in a worldly way but I guess it helped to release some of the pain but at my core I was still empty,there was still something missing.
I was living away from home at this piont in a different part of my country infact it was the capital Dublin.I was living and paying my rent off a compinsation claim I had recieved when I was four but it ran out faster then I expected it to and I was left with pennyless.I was recieving a meal a day off the mother of brothers I was hanging with.But there were times when I was so hungry I would steal from the cubboards of the people I was sharing with,for I was renting a room in a house with others.I once made bread from flour,water and a "borrowed" egg,then fried it on a pan.There was a guy living in the house who I belive now to have been possessed with a demon,who believed himself to be a christian and everyone else animals LITERALLY.
Then one night GOD spoke to me in a dream (I posted it up afew months back and also it was my first post on this site) but after the dream there was a hunger placed in me for GODS WORD.I needed to seek out a bible.I moved back to my home town through believing GOD wanted me to through the passage in revelation where it say's ye have left your first love.I took this in a worldy way you see and pursude my first love.But it was in Limerick my walk with the LORD began.I was one foot in one foot out for ages.It was I hadn't fully grasped the meaning of salvation by grace.I only knew what the LORD was revealing to me.For I wasn't involved in any church or hadn't met any born-again christians until I came onto this site afew months back.
THrough a gradual prossession working in co-operation with HIS SPIRIT HE IS NOW MY ONLY AND EVERY NEED.He led me to a new testement church in Cork city two months ago and I have also moved to that city yo be close to the church and most of all to GET CLOSER TO GOD.HE IS NOW CREATING ME INTO HIS LIKENESS,GIVING ME A HEART LIKE HIS MORE AND MORE EACH DAY.I can honestly say I AM ON FIRE FOR THE LIVING GOD WHO DESERVES ALL GLORY AND IT IS MY DESIRE TO SEE THIS COME TO PASS.HE HAS CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE AROUND AND GIVEN ME A NEW HEART.PRAISE HIS WONDERFUL NAME NOW AND FOREVER.HALLELUJAY FOR THE KING IS ALIVE AND IS THE SAME YESTERDAY TODAY AND FOREVER.I GAVE HIM MYSELF AND IN RETURN HE GAVE ME HIS SPIRIT AND I WILL DIE TO SEE HIM GLORIFIED AND IF THAT IS HIS WILL THEN SO BE IT FOR I KNOW MY HOME IS IN GLORYLAND.AMEN and AMEN.
LORD I ASK THAT YOU WILL LIGHT THE HEARTS OF THOSE WHO READ THIS AND SET THEM ABLAZE FOR YOU.GLORIFY YOURSELF IN AND THROUGH THEM AND LET YOUR WILL BE DONE.IN THE NAME OF YOUR GLORIOUS SON JESUS CHRIST.HALLELUJAY.AMEN.