Hello, I apologize if this is hard to read or it seams like i dont explain enough im not good at writing. I was a good christisn kid. I went to church and a private christian school in Ohio. My dad was a youth director and my mother worked for the church. When i was in 6th grade my mom got fired and my parents couldnt afford to send us there anymore. 7th grade I found myself in a public school, that is when I started to run into problems. I was new and wanted to be accepted so I started to hang out with the wrong group. I guess you could say it was more like a gang or a theives guild. I found a new group of friends not to long after that and told the others I didnt want to be apart of them anymore. They got mad and threatened to kill me because they heard I was stealing and didnt give them there dues. I was affraid seriously affraid. Luckily they foud out it was false and left me alone. But this is just the beginning. I moved that summer to a new school district. When I was a freshman I started to get into drugs I guess it was to fit in as well. That is when God started to speak to my heart. I got affraid, I started to think what if Jesus came back right now, what would he say to me what I do, what would happent to me. God was saying to me you know better than this your parents didnt raise you this way. For about 8 months I tried to ignore God but my fear got worse. Finally at age 16 I searched for God. I started to read my bible and pray. I accepted Jesus. I felt so happy I was on fire. I couldnt stop reading my bible. I got up extra early before school so I could read and pray. The first thing I did when I got home from school was read and pray. I stared to go to church a new one. The first time I went to yout group I saw the leader of that theives guild there. I was terrified I was about to run out of that church. Then he said I know you. We started to talk He was on fire for the Lord just like I was. He had shown up that night to give his testimony to the youth group. He had appolgozed to me for what had happend a couple of years earlier. Seeing him there was like a sign from God that I was in the right place. I was still weak in faith at this time and we all know Satan loves to attack when we are weak. There was a girl at church that I liked but I was really shy and it also didnt help that i was 16 at that time. I got depressed for 6 months it got so bad I thought about suicide a couple of times just because I couldnt talk to a girl.By the stength God had given me I over came my depression. I came out a stronger person. I continued to grow in faith and knowledge of the word. My pastor was amazed at the knowledge the Lord had given me and my youth pastor would let me teach youth group. I felt I had found my calling. To preach the word of God. Not to long after that Satan attacked me again. I felt I wasnt good enough to to teach and that I wasnt worthy to teach. I was still very affraid to speak infront of people. I thought I had to be perfect. Then I made the biggest mistake of my life. I decided to live for myself. And for some reason I was mad at God for it. At the age of 19 i joined the army. When i was in basic I met a couple of guys that were wiccan. I had never heard of it before so I started to ask them questions. Then I started to practice it for about a month. The whole time God was saying to me "What do you think you are doing you know the truth." But my heart was hardened against God I still felt it was his fault for me leaving him. Go ahead and say it "your stupid Godssoldier"For the next couple of years I ignored God 9-11 happend. I still ignored him. I got married and had a child who is now 2. Then in march 2003 i found myself in the Kuwaiti desert getting ready to invade Iraq. And yes Im still ignoring God. I was in Mosul for 9 months. While I was there I developed a Hatred for muslims. I wanted them all to die. Many times I had to contol myself even from little kids who threw rocks at us they didnt know any better that is the way their parents raised them. But I didnt care I hated them all. I reenlisted for another 4 years while I was there. My ceremony took place at the remaining walls of the city of Nineveh.. I came back to America and began to drink heavily. I got promoted to Sergeant and iI thought more money for beer. But God was still there telling me to come back to him.I drank heavily for a year then one day in January 2005 I couldnt take it anymore. I wanted to feel happy again I wanted God back in my life. I wanted what I use to have. At that moment when I ask God for forgiveness It was like I cant event explain. My haterd for muslims went away I understand what it means to love your enemy now. I dont drink anymore When i was drinking it was atleast 12 beers a night. Not anymore. It is amazing to me what God will do for you if you just let him. All that I wasted some godd did come of it. I no longer have problems Talking in front of people anymore. I have a better understanding of the world around me. I look back at that time as training for my mission ahead. I will do God work now. As a soldier I go by the warriors ethos. 1 I WILL ALWAYS PLACE THE MISSION FIRST. I do the will of the Lord first and formost. 2I WILL NEVER ACCEPT DEFEAT. I will take on all trial and tribulations head first and trust in the Lord. 3 I WILL NEVER QUIT I have waisted 6 years i have lost ground to make up. Im not going out like that again. 4 I WILL NEVER LEAVE A FALLEN COMRADE. I will look after my Brothers and Sisters in Christ and and help them back up again. I dont want anyone to go through what I went through that is why I am writing this. K eep me in your prayers you all are in mine. This forum has helped me out so much. I have told you things in this post that i havent told anyone else. There could be someone right now going through the same thing I went through. I dont want you to make the same mistakes I did. You are worthy dont let Satan tell you otherwise. Your brother in Christ Ron Hill

Ron,

Your testimony brought tears to my eyes........... You are called........ The King has need of Thee.

May God bless you even more and keep you safe brother Ron. Thank you sooooo much for your testimony. It truly encouraged me as your sister in Christ Jesus.

Love eternal In Him,
~Ish

Praise God! I pray that you will continue to cooperate with the Holy Spirit as he grows you up in the Lord.

Remember to renounce your involvement in the occut verbally. I was into Astrology etc. for many years and needed to do this and burn books or any other items connected with it.

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Hello, I apologize if this is hard to read or it seams like i dont explain enough im not good at writing. I was a good christisn kid. I went to church and a private christian school in Ohio. My dad was a youth director and my mother worked for the church. When i was in 6th grade my mom got fired and my parents couldnt afford to send us there anymore. 7th grade I found myself in a public school, that is when I started to run into problems. I was new and wanted to be accepted so I started to hang out with the wrong group. I guess you could say it was more like a gang or a theives guild. I found a new group of friends not to long after that and told the others I didnt want to be apart of them anymore. They got mad and threatened to kill me because they heard I was stealing and didnt give them there dues. I was affraid seriously affraid. Luckily they foud out it was false and left me alone. But this is just the beginning. I moved that summer to a new school district. When I was a freshman I started to get into drugs I guess it was to fit in as well. That is when God started to speak to my heart. I got affraid, I started to think what if Jesus came back right now, what would he say to me what I do, what would happent to me. God was saying to me you know better than this your parents didnt raise you this way. For about 8 months I tried to ignore God but my fear got worse. Finally at age 16 I searched for God. I started to read my bible and pray. I accepted Jesus. I felt so happy I was on fire. I couldnt stop reading my bible. I got up extra early before school so I could read and pray. The first thing I did when I got home from school was read and pray. I stared to go to church a new one. The first time I went to yout group I saw the leader of that theives guild there. I was terrified I was about to run out of that church. Then he said I know you. We started to talk He was on fire for the Lord just like I was. He had shown up that night to give his testimony to the youth group. He had appolgozed to me for what had happend a couple of years earlier. Seeing him there was like a sign from God that I was in the right place. I was still weak in faith at this time and we all know Satan loves to attack when we are weak. There was a girl at church that I liked but I was really shy and it also didnt help that i was 16 at that time. I got depressed for 6 months it got so bad I thought about suicide a couple of times just because I couldnt talk to a girl.By the stength God had given me I over came my depression. I came out a stronger person. I continued to grow in faith and knowledge of the word. My pastor was amazed at the knowledge the Lord had given me and my youth pastor would let me teach youth group. I felt I had found my calling. To preach the word of God. Not to long after that Satan attacked me again. I felt I wasnt good enough to to teach and that I wasnt worthy to teach. I was still very affraid to speak infront of people. I thought I had to be perfect. Then I made the biggest mistake of my life. I decided to live for myself. And for some reason I was mad at God for it. At the age of 19 i joined the army. When i was in basic I met a couple of guys that were wiccan. I had never heard of it before so I started to ask them questions. Then I started to practice it for about a month. The whole time God was saying to me "What do you think you are doing you know the truth." But my heart was hardened against God I still felt it was his fault for me leaving him. Go ahead and say it "your stupid Godssoldier"For the next couple of years I ignored God 9-11 happend. I still ignored him. I got married and had a child who is now 2. Then in march 2003 i found myself in the Kuwaiti desert getting ready to invade Iraq. And yes Im still ignoring God. I was in Mosul for 9 months. While I was there I developed a Hatred for muslims. I wanted them all to die. Many times I had to contol myself even from little kids who threw rocks at us they didnt know any better that is the way their parents raised them. But I didnt care I hated them all. I reenlisted for another 4 years while I was there. My ceremony took place at the remaining walls of the city of Nineveh.. I came back to America and began to drink heavily. I got promoted to Sergeant and iI thought more money for beer. But God was still there telling me to come back to him.I drank heavily for a year then one day in January 2005 I couldnt take it anymore. I wanted to feel happy again I wanted God back in my life. I wanted what I use to have. At that moment when I ask God for forgiveness It was like I cant event explain. My haterd for muslims went away I understand what it means to love your enemy now. I dont drink anymore When i was drinking it was atleast 12 beers a night. Not anymore. It is amazing to me what God will do for you if you just let him. All that I wasted some godd did come of it. I no longer have problems Talking in front of people anymore. I have a better understanding of the world around me. I look back at that time as training for my mission ahead. I will do God work now. As a soldier I go by the warriors ethos. 1 I WILL ALWAYS PLACE THE MISSION FIRST. I do the will of the Lord first and formost. 2I WILL NEVER ACCEPT DEFEAT. I will take on all trial and tribulations head first and trust in the Lord. 3 I WILL NEVER QUIT I have waisted 6 years i have lost ground to make up. Im not going out like that again. 4 I WILL NEVER LEAVE A FALLEN COMRADE. I will look after my Brothers and Sisters in Christ and and help them back up again. I dont want anyone to go through what I went through that is why I am writing this. K eep me in your prayers you all are in mine. This forum has helped me out so much. I have told you things in this post that i havent told anyone else. There could be someone right now going through the same thing I went through. I dont want you to make the same mistakes I did. You are worthy dont let Satan tell you otherwise. Your brother in Christ Ron Hill
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Hello Ron,

Thank you for your touching and inspiring testimony to God's love. I have just regiven my life to the Lord after falling away for many years not because I wanted to but because I could not find Him again. It has been a few months now and at times I feel like giving up but I know I can't. I pray though-out the day and read much of the Bible. I sometimes wonder if I have fallen away too far and spray to be reunited with the Lord soon. Please pray for His help for me as I pray for you too.

God Bless you.

[quote=labman24,Mar 16 2005, 06:02 PM]
[quote=Godssoldier,Mar 13 2005, 04:24 AM]
Hello, I apologize if this is hard to read or it seams like i dont explain enough im not good at writing. I was a good christisn kid. I went to church and a private christian school in Ohio. My dad was a youth director and my mother worked for the church. When i was in 6th grade my mom got fired and my parents couldnt afford to send us there anymore. 7th grade I found myself in a public school, that is when I started to run into problems. I was new and wanted to be accepted so I started to hang out with the wrong group. I guess you could say it was more like a gang or a theives guild. I found a new group of friends not to long after that and told the others I didnt want to be apart of them anymore. They got mad and threatened to kill me because they heard I was stealing and didnt give them there dues. I was affraid seriously affraid. Luckily they foud out it was false and left me alone. But this is just the beginning. I moved that summer to a new school district. When I was a freshman I started to get into drugs I guess it was to fit in as well. That is when God started to speak to my heart. I got affraid, I started to think what if Jesus came back right now, what would he say to me what I do, what would happent to me. God was saying to me you know better than this your parents didnt raise you this way. For about 8 months I tried to ignore God but my fear got worse. Finally at age 16 I searched for God. I started to read my bible and pray. I accepted Jesus. I felt so happy I was on fire. I couldnt stop reading my bible. I got up extra early before school so I could read and pray. The first thing I did when I got home from school was read and pray. I stared to go to church a new one. The first time I went to yout group I saw the leader of that theives guild there. I was terrified I was about to run out of that church. Then he said I know you. We started to talk He was on fire for the Lord just like I was. He had shown up that night to give his testimony to the youth group. He had appolgozed to me for what had happend a couple of years earlier. Seeing him there was like a sign from God that I was in the right place. I was still weak in faith at this time and we all know Satan loves to attack when we are weak. There was a girl at church that I liked but I was really shy and it also didnt help that i was 16 at that time. I got depressed for 6 months it got so bad I thought about suicide a couple of times just because I couldnt talk to a girl.By the stength God had given me I over came my depression. I came out a stronger person. I continued to grow in faith and knowledge of the word. My pastor was amazed at the knowledge the Lord had given me and my youth pastor would let me teach youth group. I felt I had found my calling. To preach the word of God. Not to long after that Satan attacked me again. I felt I wasnt good enough to to teach and that I wasnt worthy to teach. I was still very affraid to speak infront of people. I thought I had to be perfect. Then I made the biggest mistake of my life. I decided to live for myself. And for some reason I was mad at God for it. At the age of 19 i joined the army. When i was in basic I met a couple of guys that were wiccan. I had never heard of it before so I started to ask them questions. Then I started to practice it for about a month. The whole time God was saying to me "What do you think you are doing you know the truth." But my heart was hardened against God I still felt it was his fault for me leaving him. Go ahead and say it "your stupid Godssoldier"For the next couple of years I ignored God 9-11 happend. I still ignored him. I got married and had a child who is now 2. Then in march 2003 i found myself in the Kuwaiti desert getting ready to invade Iraq. And yes Im still ignoring God. I was in Mosul for 9 months. While I was there I developed a Hatred for muslims. I wanted them all to die. Many times I had to contol myself even from little kids who threw rocks at us they didnt know any better that is the way their parents raised them. But I didnt care I hated them all. I reenlisted for another 4 years while I was there. My ceremony took place at the remaining walls of the city of Nineveh.. I came back to America and began to drink heavily. I got promoted to Sergeant and iI thought more money for beer. But God was still there telling me to come back to him.I drank heavily for a year then one day in January 2005 I couldnt take it anymore. I wanted to feel happy again I wanted God back in my life. I wanted what I use to have. At that moment when I ask God for forgiveness It was like I cant event explain. My haterd for muslims went away I understand what it means to love your enemy now. I dont drink anymore When i was drinking it was atleast 12 beers a night. Not anymore. It is amazing to me what God will do for you if you just let him. All that I wasted some godd did come of it. I no longer have problems Talking in front of people anymore. I have a better understanding of the world around me. I look back at that time as training for my mission ahead. I will do God work now. As a soldier I go by the warriors ethos. 1 I WILL ALWAYS PLACE THE MISSION FIRST. I do the will of the Lord first and formost. 2I WILL NEVER ACCEPT DEFEAT. I will take on all trial and tribulations head first and trust in the Lord. 3 I WILL NEVER QUIT I have waisted 6 years i have lost ground to make up. Im not going out like that again. 4 I WILL NEVER LEAVE A FALLEN COMRADE. I will look after my Brothers and Sisters in Christ and and help them back up again. I dont want anyone to go through what I went through that is why I am writing this. K eep me in your prayers you all are in mine. This forum has helped me out so much. I have told you things in this post that i havent told anyone else. There could be someone right now going through the same thing I went through. I dont want you to make the same mistakes I did. You are worthy dont let Satan tell you otherwise. Your brother in Christ Ron Hill
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Praise Jesus! Ron you are definately in my prayers. What a great tesimony!


God bless you brother
Jeep

Hello Ron,

Thank you for your touching and inspiring testimony to God's love. I have just regiven my life to the Lord after falling away for many years not because I wanted to but because I could not find Him again. It has been a few months now and at times I feel like giving up but I know I can't. I pray though-out the day and read much of the Bible. I sometimes wonder if I have fallen away too far and spray to be reunited with the Lord soon. Please pray for His help for me as I pray for you too.

God Bless you.
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You are in my prayers Brother.

What an Awesome Testimony...So wonderful to say That no matter what we go through in life WE have never done so much that God can't forgive us. So many think they have done so much God won't forgive them but his Mercy is Wonderful.

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May God guide your path and keep you from the wolves in sheep clothing. May this love never die.



All Praise The Ancient Of Days

Ron, thank you for your testimony. Jesus loves you! Stay strong in the Lord and the power of His might!

David

Your like Jacob....You have wrestled with God and now its just a matter of clinging to Him.

The military is a rough place. That's where I got a hardened heart too. Thanks for sharing your story. It was moving.

i used to be part of a little gang too but that is just childhood innocence

I had to come back and read this again. But where are you Ron? I can't find you anywhere. You are Not on the casualty list. I can't find you on the wounded list.

Last time he checked in he was in Iraq....it's so strange God's Loft...He was on my mind yesterday and I prayed for him. I hope he's ok. I'm going to send him a pm and hope he checks in again. Thanks for the confirmation and reminder!
Blessings..
Lisa

Ok...I just pm'd him. Hopefully he'll check in soon. Please say a prayer for Godsoldier (Ron Hill). Thanks!

WE'RE PRAYING FOR YOU RON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Godsoldier...

I don't get alot of time to read all that I would like to on this forum, but I try to take a moment to read what I can.

You have a wonderful testemony to share and thank you for doing that.

Even though I have been saved since 1989....I still sometimes get into attitudes that are not coming from God. I blame my ancestral roots for that. We have some explosive tempers in my family.

I understand your feelings of hate for Muslims. There is something called self righteous anger. This is not a sin. I am angry at the extremists. However...sometimes it feels I'm angry at the whole lot of them.

But I know this is not true. I come across Arab students on my campus from time to time and I have started to engage them in conversation. I met a really sweet young man the other day in the parking garage. He had such a sweet smile on his face.

I had come across other "friendly Muslims" in the past. I ususally walk away with a neutral feeling about the person or as in this case....a good feeling...or there are other times when I absolutely feel the person is snake and fake as one can be and very distrusting at their core. I just consider that perhaps God is giving me discernment about the person. Anyway....

We talked about how he is liking it here and is very happy to be here. He seemed to be very genuine. I really liked this one and wanted to reach out to him...but I was in a hurry.

I thought about him for awhile while sitting in class. I had wished I had invited him to church or something.
So I prayed that God gives me another chance.

By the way....thank you for your service to our country. I don't recall if you mentioned what country..but I assume your an American.

Continue to trust in the Lord and keep your focus on Him. God bless you.

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