I came from another Christian site, where members judged me by political beliefs instead of sharing in common our Lord and Savior. I come here in hopes of sharing what the Lord has done for us. Here is a brief version of my testimony; I'll post a longer one soon.I accepted Jesus as my Savior when I was 7 years old, but it was not until I was much older that I accepted Jesus as my [i]Lord.[/i] Many years passed in which I went back and forth between extremes of legalism and sin; I did not have true victory over sin, because I was not walking with God. I did not know what it meant to know and love God.
When I was 19, I met a Christian girl whom God used to lead me to Him. A week after we met, the conviction was heavier than ever, and I confessed my terrible sins and asked Jesus to be the Lord over my life. But somewhere in the process, over a period of several months, I became emotionally involved with this girl in a way I know was inappropriate. I know we were not meant to fall in love with each other; God brought us together to be siblings in Christ, not more.
After numerous attempts to straighten out the relationship we realized that too much damage had been done; staying friends would be a threat to our walk with God. So we ended it. That is the most painful thing I've ever experienced, and it still hurts terribly, but God has begun to heal the pain. I love my feelings of love are from within myself, not from God. I've asked Him to take away these feelings.
I still struggle with sexual sin, not in actions but in my heart. This has been destructive but I'm finally having some victory; Christ is having victory through me. Please keep me in your prayers, that I will not stumble. My desire is to live completely unto God.
I believe I'll find good fellowship here.
I look forward to the discussions we will share in the future.