I grew up in Christian school all my life. When I was 11 I almost died with anorexia and then at 14 with bulemia. I started drinking alcohol and got caught up in some of the worst situations. It was in 1998, my mother was given the gift of prophecy that was very powerful. She read to me her journal much like a letter of an event that was to occur. Because I was not saved, I did not realize that sometimes prophecies do not always happen in chronological order and are sometimes like a puzzle. The event did not happen and the next morning I felt mortified, like what if God did not exist? I fell on my face in my apartment and cried like someone had died. I could not eat, could not do anything but lay there like a very sick person. I accepted Christ right then and my lights in my apartment when on and off. I saw Christ touch my foot and call my name. I saw Him walking to me over the horizon of the ocean as the sun was coming up with His white robe swaying back and forth in the wind as I was on the beach. I saw myself in a very dark room and He flooded a three story wood carved door open...He had his head turned where I could not see it and His robe swayed in the breeze...He was very tall and His robe was so white and he sparkled like jewels. I fell on my face and I rejoiced. My soul, my mind, my life was on fire. I felt as though I had stepped into another realm. I finally got what my mother was trying to tell me all those years in high school. I thought it was not real and she was just trying to please others by going to church. I just had the wrong idea about Christianity all along. I did not realize just how real it was. I always thought it was something you believed and then you died and if you believed, you went to heaven. Of course I always believed Jesus died on the cross for me, but I did not know Him until that moment. Oh how I thank Him that I am able to live for Him and that He did not give up on me. He could have allowed me to die in my sin so many times. I was practically on the other side! Praise God for His lovingkindness!

...and how real he is! Thanks for sharing that CD

California Dreaming....In reading your post, the song He Set me free, kept running through my mind! Praise the Lord, He found You. Each of our expereinces are different and unique. What a wonderful experience this must have been for you. May God continue to Bless and Keep You!

Thanks for the 'whole' of your precious testimony CD!

And thanks for the 'prophetic word of wisdom'!

You said:

"....I did not realize that sometimes prophecies do not always happen in chronological order and are sometimes like a puzzle".

I could not believe that He could forgive a person like me. I had been a part of the occult and went to very bad night clubs. But He kept showing me He was on my side and I would eventually be saved. One night at a club I was really drunk and my friend left me there. It was a gay underground club for very dark people. A girl walked up to me who was the high priestess of the satanic church and asked me if she could help me find my car. She actually drove me to my car and no harm came to me. It was weird, but the Lord even used her to help me. I also remember standing in a nightclub one night and just remembering, wow I am really lost. I remember feeling this bizarre feeling of no one in the world knew who I was or cared. It was exhilarating for a moment to think that I was free, but free from what? I was misreable. Here I was at a club to meet people and they were cold as ice and I was becoming just like them. I felt no love, no pain, just a dead feeling like nothingness. I remember going to a Halloween party at a girls house who was a vampire. When I walked into her apartment, I felt the weird spirit there. I knew it was a demon and it was powerful. I got really drunk and found that they girl was a satanic witch and even though I was not saved, I witnessed to her anyways about Jesus. Weird!? Another time I got really drunk and got thrown out of my boyfriends house because of a fight so I drove home. This was when I was 18. I cannot tell you how I drove home, but I know that I did not drive. It was like an angel drove me home. It was so weird, but I was OK and home in my bed and it was like God took care of me and wrapped me up in my bed at home and kissed me goodnight like His little girl. It scared me half to death. Now that I look back, I really do believe that no one will have an excuse to reject Christ at the judgment. He is so awesome, and even though we are so mean to Him, He continually proves to us His power, His love, and His tenderness to the most embarrassing or horrible times in our lives. I was the problem. Because of my own guilt, I thought He would not want me...but what I failed to realize is that He sees everything anyways and already died for those sins.