QUOTE (Miki @ Aug 25 2008, 06:41 AM)


Linda! I guess we're talking about two different things??
The light l'm talking about is being misrepresented by some on this form. The example l'm refering to is in regards to a poem posted by c7..
When l talked about a free for all l was refering to the forum as a whole..not this particular string...
Love you

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Larry...What are you saying??
You got banned from the forum and that's why you have a new name???
Found in another thread...I would have replied there if I had seen it earlier...
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Another problem l see on this forum is the name changes. I don't know who l'm talking to anymore. I personally think it's dishonest.
Owe up to what you say or don't say it. I have some really embarrassing posts on this forum.
But oh well..who am l anyway? Nobody. I've grown and changed...for the better l believe. And anybody who really wants to know can go back and see how l've changed. It's a good thing not a bad thing.
Poor Larry...I will use you as an example
Larry has changed his name so many times...but you know what? His testimony of where he was and where God is taking him is really interesting..and encouraging. By changing his name we've missed a lot.
God has spoken through him many times...his flesh has spoken
and possibly other not so clean things have spoken through him...
me too...but l owe up to it.
No I was not banned. I am referring to those who have been banned and yet come back in with great rancour and sarcasm and start up all over again diminutively. I think most of us can name at least two recent elements of this. A name change and a new IP address and under cover of darkness in a "level two forum intrigue" they come back. I have been asked to bite my tongue because there are circumstances underfoot of which I am not entirely aware. These are serious enough to give grace to the request. There are times when things are so upside down that one can contest the Lord of glory thinking he is doing Him service. This has that potential. In a way, like when Paul was persecuting Christians. If it were not for that request for quarantine of my "vast array of syncopated prose" I would be pulling the trigger on these things. The whole intent of this thread is to give voice to the frustration that it appears to not matter when moderation sanctions are applied to individuals of note. That would remain true but sometimes one has to withold for the greater good. It is the highest form of Christian service in a respect. Stepping aside in a time of role reversal. Giving up one's one sense of propriety to serve a greater need. I was coming from a sarcastic "if you can't lick them join them " aspect. But given the tender underbelly of this porcupine, I am giving sway to an issue..
In the course of the accusations that have been biased by any number of "oneupsmanship" powerplays, I have also stood accused of secret and hidden agendas and a form of abuse of my own making in that I have changed my screen name several times. I power pointed all of that in another place but just to reserve judment there are certain fleeting occasions where what appears to be an insurgency directed to defer some kind of recrimination of self, one behaves in a way which tends to give creedence to the very charges one is refuting. Name changes on forums seem to have that effect. For no one else can know the inner workings of what may be a deep held secret, or nothing more than a need to refresh one's position. I maintain that forum names often reveal a heart. I find it to be so time and again. Sometimes that revelation is easily discerned and other times it is not. There are ways in which steadfastness in a name which remains unchanged sends a statement of it's own. I would say Miki is one such. One does not want to appear as a chamelion standing in a place with a new name that hides one while standing in front of a coloured background. If I had it to do again I would have chosen a name and kept it throughout. For I had not given deep thought to the message it sends. But then it comes to a point of deference in which that reputation has been ingrained and whatever "harm" has been done cannot be undone, and any future such "harm" is lost in the backdrop of the past. That is saying, subsequent name changes have no real ability to further deepen the already scarred profile. In a limited way, it is like why if one were to be a murderer, any subsequent murder you commit makes you no more of a murderer...it just adds to the fact you are a murderer. I have heard it said that once one has murdered another person, it gets easier each time to murder again.
So for the record as best as I can remember I have staged my profile under sundry aliases over multiple years. About 6 or so. My profile show less but there was some kind of change that eliminated further back. Whosoever, boanerges, fervent, maz, inspired. Tomcat trumpeted that far and wide because of my prophetic affilations, it was to him sublime evidence that added weight to his demand that I be sanctioned for sham and trickerey and sordidness in a vote of non confidence that proclaimed me as a false teacher and a false prophet and a false everything...he treated me like I was a mock up store front in a grade B western. And I in part brought that upon myself. I would not have made room for any of that if I were not so naieve at the outset. For all the appearances and rhetoric of words, I am basically a common man and I drive a common van and my dog ain't got no pedigree. Because internet anonymity allows for subterfuge, it is not only allowed, it is expected and perhaps even condoned. It is perceived as a right of passage perhaps. But I have been one who wears my heart on my sleeve throughout my entire life. As a lost and unsaved wretch and as one who has come under the umbrella of God. Being like that does a lot of things. It sends a message of openess to a degree. But it also sends a message of a vacuous nature. It gives folks a right to speak into your life. That is what communications does. Once you share a thing with some one there is an inferred right granted to another person to stand in line to give voice and opinion. That very thing is demonstrated in the book of Job. But i was not smart enough to know these things. And now that I know them I am still not smart enough to apply them. It has made a travesty of my persona in so doing. And if I could, I would hide under a rock and be seen no more. But one has to go on because one has no choice. One faces the fact that one has created his own rocky riverbed and the flow that agitates that bed is set in motion by one's own candor or lack therof that was meant to explain an honest heart, but because strangers do not approach one in the same vane, it gets misread as an agenda ridden imprecation of all things human and divine.
I don't know where all that came from. Is it dirty laundry? Is it exposing an agenda? Is it just being honest? Is it cannon fodder for those who want to destroy me? I guess time and the world will be the judge. For I am not in control of any of that and I have less control of it the more I give voice to my eruditions....
Being a man of many words, I could have remembered a bumper sticker I saw in a store way back when I was mere lad...."Even a fish would stay out of trouble if he kept his mouth shut."
See how wise I am? I trap myself in a coffin of my own making. I buy the shovel and supply the graveyard. I pay the undertaker and give an offeratory and choose the hymn for my own funeral.